~HaileyHAVOC

pretty much im feeling very torn right now, idk. im like all emo tonight. I had a panic attack last night and i feel another one coming on... idk last night i was upset about something but i honestly dont know why im all emo today... idk. everything is just complicated and confusing. i miss the boy... it pretty much feels like he's been grounded forever and it really sucks. i think i might write about him for a little while cuz i know itll make me happy =]
he says that he doesnt deserve me but he doesnt know how wrong he is. i cant explain how much i love him. its like right now i can feel something in my heart. like it feels warm. i dont know how to explain it. but if youve felt it you know what i mean. as cliche as it sounds i want to be with him all the time, he's nerdy and immature sometimes and can be a little eccentric but everything about him makes me love him even more. how do you know you love someone... hm... well when you think about them at random times throughout the day and just smile to yourself, when you seriously dont know what you would do if they ever left or anything ever happened to them, when you love them for their flaws... everything that is strange and odd about him makes me fall more in love with him. he does stupid shit and it makes me laugh. i love that he's human. that i dont feel completly inferior when im with him. he makes me feel good about myself. like someone really loves me and cares about me. hes the only person that has ever made me cry out of being happy. the only one that i can see myself with 20 years from now. i want it with him all of it. my life. my world. i want him in it. Hes my everything. he's the one.


I love you hun,

Hailey